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Friday, January 01, 2010
I hate Facebook and Tumblr right now. Well, no, not really Facebook and Tumblr but a highschool batchmate who is in Facebook and another who is in Tumblr. The one in Facebook keeps counting down the days left before we go back to school. Oh, I really really want tell her to just FUCKING SHUT THE FUCK UP. I don't want to go back to school yet, okay? My professors, probably unlike yours, left us tons of requirements to hand in once we're back so I'm not really as excited as you are. What are you trying to tell us anyway?? That you are prepared and that we're not? The hell, even if I'm prepared I still wouldn't be that excited to end the break and be stressed again. Especially since there are a lot of bitches that are so stressing to be around. Gaaaah. And you, the one in Tumblr, could you please please just stop flooding the fucking dashboard with your fucking formspring answers? I hate to break it to you, bitch, but not everyone's interested. And there's such thing as compiling, you know. You can just compile them and post them all at once instead of posting them one at a time. What are you thinking, really? That you're a star?? Gaaaah. Sure, I can just fucking unfollow you, and delete the other bitch from my friends list from facebook but that would be fucking rude 'coz we know each other in real life and that might give rise to issues again which I am so totally avoiding like forever so gaaaaah. Guess I'll just satisfy myself by ranting here in blogdrive where neither of the bitches are. Damn, I shouldn't even be ranting, it's New Year and I have fucking lots of requirements to do. Fuck you bitches!
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Friday, January 01, 2010 06:15 pm (sandysandra3)
too much Requiem
Thursday, August 13, 2009
I was high on drugs.
In last night's dream I was. Maybe this was brought about subconsciously by the soundtrack of the Requiem for a Dream which I've been very often listening to. Google it. The feeling wasn't exactly wonderful though. Everything seemed to be swirling and my knees were very very wobbly. I felt desperate. i wanted to become sober again because I don't want to miss violin practice that was only a few minutes away. In my dream, the antidote to become sober again was to drink fresh human blood. I wounded myself and drank blood but it didn't work since the drug was also in my blood system so I had to find another human. I found one-- my father. I didn't know if I did get to drink his blood but I'm very sure about one thing, this is definitely one of the creepiest dreams/nightmares I've ever had.
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Thursday, August 13, 2009 09:56 pm (sandysandra3)
writing from elem and SPCM1 from college...
Tuesday, July 07, 2009
So last Friday, I was absent in Econ10 because of pure laziness. I jokingly wanted to get sick so I could absent myself validly. Today, I unfortunately got what I wish for but it was not fun at all. I've got severe colds I was scared that people might mistake it for A(H1N1) and quarantine me but I'm quite certain it isn't since my temperature is normal. I also had my check up today. Aside from confirming that my disease is not A(H1N1), the doctor also gave me a reason to blog. You see, this is not the doctor I usually go to to have check-ups. My usual doctor has too many patients today and my mom advised me not to stay too long in the hospital since my immune system is currently weak so I decided to see another doctor, the one who has the least patients in line. So after this doctor had performed the usual tongue-out, stethoscope, inhale-exhale procedure on me, he then started talking VERY FAST in a very SOFT voice. He was blabbering about allergies, what triggers them, what am I possibly allergic to--pollen and house dust mite and (what are those again??) in an approximate speed of 240 words per minute. There was nothing wrong with talking that fast if you're gossiping but well, he's a doctor. Doctors should speak CLEARLY and AUDIBLY. I was very lucky I already know those things he blabbered about since my allergologist had already explained those previously or else, I might not have understood or remembered what he said. So the conclusion? As an aspiring doctor, I have another promise to make to my future patients aside from writing legibly in prescriptions,I also promise to speak very clearly and audibly. Who knows, there could be instances when patients hear their doctors incorrectly like for example, mistake canker for cancer then geez... i guess that would be really DEADLY.~
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Tuesday, July 07, 2009 08:39 pm (sandysandra3)
inspired by facebook's quiz on what's your robot name
Monday, July 06, 2009
I woke up this morning with the thoughts of wanting to become a cyborg. Being a cyborg means efficiency. It would mean I could finish my school assignments in a flash and be able to do so much more. Being a cyborg means strength-- I could carry heavy objects, fight off villains and not get sick anymore. Well, with human sicknesses that is, like this swine flu pandemic that is really getting on my nerves, dengue, colds, etcetera etcetera. Being a cyborg means I could not be hurt anymore... Infatuation? Bitterness? Don't make me laugh; those certainly are not for cyborgs. Being a cyborg could also means getting a perfect figure. Have you ever seen a fat cyborg? No, of course not! Cyborgs don't have inefficient digestive systems. Also, they don't eat so it's impossible that unused calories will build up as fats on their bodies.
But then... if I do become a cyborg, I would certainly miss the adrenaline rush one feels while riding his/her favorite ride in his/her favorite amusement park. Cyborgs don't experience adrenaline rushes too, do they? :)) Also, would I still be able to play the violin if I become a cyborg? Having metal fingers worries me-- I might not be able to do vibrato anymore. Or, I might not be aware of how much strength I'm already exerting on the violin I might break the violin's the fingerboard or bow. More importantly, cyborgs don't have emotions which means even if I will still be able to play the violin, I would not be able to appreciate the music I'm making which makes the whole point of playing pointless... Also, not being able to feel sadness anymore also means not being able to feel happiness... Even if I don't want to feel being unloved, I still want to love. I can't imagine what will happen to my mom if I become a cyborg-- she always tells me that I'm the only one left who really really loves her now... I can't imagine being able to still embrace her but not being able to express how much I love her through those embraces anymore... Most importantly, cyborgs don't have souls, do they? That would mean then that I won't be able to go to Heaven so... this is where my thoughts of becoming a cyborg ends. I don't want to become a cyborg even in my wildest dreams anymore. Well, I can't really imagine myself opting to trade happiness for strength and efficiency... With regards to the hurt and moving on part, well, there's got to be another way. There's GOT to be...
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Monday, July 06, 2009 05:08 pm (sandysandra3)
a bit of advertisement..
Sunday, July 05, 2009
WANTED: CELLISTS AND VIOLISTS
Right now, aside from 21 units of school, I'm also busying myself with longer hours of practicing the violin. Our university is forming an orchestra this year but it's not yet a full blown one because all we have right now are violinists. We haven't find any violist or cellist yet but we're working on persuading a few who play wind instruments to join us as well. What they did when they played for the graduation last April was replace the cellists and violists with guitarists... I was not yet part of the orchestra then since I was too busy with my STAT1 summer classes. (Boohoo..) Now that I'm in, we're still looking but still haven't found anyone yet. I really do hope there are a few in the lower batches but I really doubt if they will join since freshies somehow tend to stay away from orgs, or anything of that sort... Anyway, if you know someone who plays the viola or the cello, please be kind enough to introduce me to them, I'll love you forever if you do. :)) Even if we're not in the same university, we could still form a string quartet. It would be really REALLY nice. There a few quartets in the country so far and we could play at events and even get paid... Then, if we also become good enough, maybe we would also be invited to do concerts...Ahh... I've always been dreaming of that. Hahaha. :))
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Sunday, July 05, 2009 01:20 am (sandysandra3)
this is what happens when people make me write essays about love when i'm in a bad mood.. :|
Thursday, July 02, 2009
Ever heard of Charlie Chaplin's movie City Lights? It was an oldie but a goodie too. Our prof in Fil20 made us watch and write a short essay about it afterwards. The question we need to answer was what concept of love was portrayed in the movie... Unfortunately, I was in a not-so-good mood while I was writing my short essay that while my classmates wrote about courage, and true and unconditional love, what I wrote was what was portrayed was the 'idealistic' kind of love. With this kind of love, everything that we want to happen will happen--the protagonist, no matter how many challenges may come his/her way, will usually end up with his/her loved one. They will have a have a happy ending and quoting the exact sentence from my essay, 'lahat ng gusot ay nahahanapan ng lusot.' Unfortunately, in real life not everyone will be lucky or blessed enough to experience this kind of love. Happily-ever-afters are a VERY rare case. You're already lucky if even for a short time the one you love has also loved you because there are even those who die without ever being really loved at all...
Well, of course, I did not include that last part in my essay anymore, it's just a proof of how bitter my brain could actually become. But I could have written it and my essay would have been ruined... Moreover, the movie was actually good, it didn't deserve that... Thinking about it made me so sad and guilty afterwards... :|
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Tuesday, June 24, 2008 10:16 am (sandysandra3)
what's in store for me?
Saturday, May 31, 2008
Recently, every time my mother would ask me why I chose Biology as my course, I would answer 'hmmm... because, it sounds like VIOlin, my most beloved instrument!' and she would get exasperated and try to knock some sense into my head. Of course, I'm just kidding. Duh? I'm not THAT dumb. I just think 'because I want to help people' sounds like a phony 5-year old kid's answer in a beauty pageant and 'because I want to get rich' not only sounds selfish, it's also a boring one.
The summer before first year, hundreds of friends and relatives would ask me why I did not choose Dev Comm as my course. I was the editor-in-chief of our school paper, wasn't I? Well, I did choose Dev Comm, it just happened that Bio was my first choice and Dev Comm was second and I passed Bio, so there... And even though I was the EIC, I never really had plans on pursuing jobs related to that after high school; I only did it for FUN. Yes, for fun..
When my mom hears that, she would become exasperated again. She'd say, yeah right, I typed and edited and lay-outed in front of the computer from morning 'til night and night 'til morning back then just for fun. Well, that wasn't fun. I even cried so much during the times that I feel deserted by my co-editors and co-writers. That wasn't fun alright. Maybe I was just acting on impulse. But nonetheless, I never really imagined myself taking up another course aside from bio in college.
And if my mom has not been having memory gaps, she should recall that even during the times that I have not yet been having lessons, even during the times that the bamboo flute is the only instrument I could play, during the times that I was still in elementary and does not really know what 'biology' really is, I've already decided on it as my course. Because I want to become a doctor. Because I want to cure sick people. Because being able to cure others sounds FUN.
Well, that was my idea of FUN back then. Because right now, the only fun thing for me is playing the violin. Kung pede nga lang, mag-violin na lang ako forever at lumipat ng St.Scho at magpaka-violin major na lang din.. Ooops I did not say that!
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Saturday, May 31, 2008 02:21 pm (sandysandra3)
friendster survey galing kay ihsa.. ^^
Sunday, February 10, 2008
1.)Sinong mas matangkad sa inyo ng crush mo? -xa
2.)Ano ang kulay nya? -parang snow.. joke! kase, he always seems to have that radiant glow. di ba nga pag nakikita ko xa nagiging black & white ang buong mundo except sa kanya? tapos parang may mga fairy dust pa! haha.. XD
3.)sino mas matanda sa inyo? -ako. by 3 months..
4.)Kailan mo sya last nakita? -hmm.. january 26.. damn regret..
5.) Kailan mo sya last nkausap? -tagal naaaa
6.) Close kayo? -ewan ko lang ngaun, dedmahin ba naman birthday ko...
7.)Anong kulay buhok ng nya? -black? na mejo brownish?
8.)Magaling sumayaw? -yep..^^
9.)Magaling kumanta? -oo daw? di ko pa nadidinig ehh... ^^
10.) Saan siya magaling? -gitara. and making girls fall for him... haay... sana nga lang he would catch them after making them fall for him di ba??
11.)Alam ba nya na crush mo sya? -wan ku lng
12.)Kilala ka ba nya? -uu
13.) Alam nya name mo? -uu
14.)Nka text mo na ? -yep.. pero indi ngayun.. =(
15.)May karibal ka? -damn. dami.
16.)Gaano ktagal mo na sya crush? -november 18, 2006.
17.)Saan mo sya unang nkta? -first ko xang nakilala formally nung rlc ng yfc nung 3rd yr ako.. sa letran yun
19.)Sasabihin mo ba sknya? -kung gusto nya marinig,why not? <--tama!
20) Narinig mo na ba boses nya? -onaman
21)Kilala ba siya ng mga friends mo? -yep2x.. madalas xang topic ng aming mga chit chat/pagdadrama(?) haha
22) E kilala mo ba mga friend nya? -yep2x pero we have not been introduced formally. (lol. stalker?? XD) yung isa lang, yung kapatid ng batchm8 ko.. waha
23) Anong pangalan nya? - itago na lang naten sa name na Crisostomo Gutierrez.. nyahaha! XD
i'm sandra.
sweet sixteen when this blog was created.
eighteen years old until january 27, 2010.
taking up BS Biology at UPLB.
Harry Potter fan.
massive La Corda D'Oro and Nodame Cantabile fan. procrastinator.
a student during class hours, a violinist at night, and a computer addict at all other times that i am not asleep. xD
loves GOD above all.
likes rock and classical music.
loves everything sentimental.
and have always had the misfortune of falling for the right person at the wrong time...
my posts here are different from my posts in my multiply so click here if you'd also like to visit that one.
Thanks for visiting! ^^
xoxo
